Writers block

Thinking about what to post today I think I started 10 different posts, wrote down a few things and just wasn’t feeling it. I always want my blog posts to either have some great images or if its a personal post to be something to help and inspire others. I am always hesitant to put out a blog post, it takes me some time to hit that final publish button. I want to be real with everyone but at the same time know you are all so busy and want to provide great content for you to read, to be able to lift up your spirits. But tonight nothing comes to my mind to write about so I am going to do something I have never done before, just write. What I don’t really know but as I type I hope something good will come. Actually that gets me thinking about movement, what do we usually do when we don’t know what to do? Sometimes I think we tend to stay put instead of push ahead into the unknown. Fear keeps you put, it keeps you really in bondage. I used to be like that, sometimes I would have an idea but wouldn’t fully know how to do it. So what would happen with that idea, it would sit in my mind until one day the thought of it was gone. I have had many things I wanted to try out in my business, new lighting ways, new ways of printing…. so many ideas go through this little head of mine. But what used to happen is I would write it down, get inspired, maybe even start something new. But then I would get to a point of not knowing exactly what to do next, instead of asking someone, searching for help or even just trying something totally new myself I would say to myself “i’ll finish this soon”. Or thought “OK now this is the hard part and I need to do it right so i’ll wait until I am ready”. What happened is I would never be ready and after time that inspiration would be gone. I don’t know how I got to be like this either, when I was younger I used to love to try out new things. But somehow something changed that was trying to keep me from reaching out. Fear of rejection of not being a “success” was getting in my way of doing what I was supposed to be doing.
But last year when I really realized what was going on I saw how ridiculous it was. I started to act out on the things that were in my head and make them happen. I realized that no matter if something is a success or not, you have to try. By not trying something new you will have 0% chance of succeeding and what is success anyway? It’s defined differently for us all, for me it’s living out God’s purpose on this earth. Doing what I was created to do and doing it to my best ability! I have found that the insights he gives me are always right and am finally starting to act them out, and act them out right away. There is really no time like the present. In 2010 I will continue to act on things right away and have no fear, regardless of what happens I am sure that 2010 will have some pretty amazing stories and things to share. I know that it already does and we are just in the first month of the year. I think that’s it, a little thought that came into my mind, put it down on paper (or
Wow, now I feel much better about this post. I didn’t know what I would say or how that would go but it was a fun exercise for me. And I hope that this can at least touch and help out one of you reading it. I sat down and wrote out some thoughts in about 20 minutes and am not going to proof read them or even look at what I wrote